Fear not, For I am with thee.

There have been a lot of thought swirling through my head the last couple days. My family and I as well as my patient amazing boyfriend ( like honestly guys... I have no idea what I did to deserve this kid...like he’s the best of the best 💛) decided to get away from the chaos that this is world we live in right now due to COVID-19. We are currently building a cabin down in Zions, which is by the way one of my favorite places in the world, and felt like it would be a good place to try and find some peace in this crazy time. I have seen so many posts about people who have been going stir crazy, wanting to run away, people who are struggling mentally (myself being one of them) and people being so afraid to go to work because they don’t want to put not only themselves at risk but their families. Through out all of this I have been thinking a lot about our savior, our prophet, and this up coming LDS General Conference. We have been told for YEARS, to do food storage, to have 72 hour kits, to be prepared for anything. It is interesting to me that even when a prophet... someone who speaks to god personally on the daily tells us to do something... sometimes we brush it off... we think... oh I will do that another day.. or I will get to it eventually. Now I’m not saying you need to go out and mass buy everything but how hard is it to every time you go to the store for groceries... buy a little extra of that chili you like or a little extra ramen? You don’t have to have a million dollars or even be financially stable to start your food storage. We have been told to PREPARE. Another thought that has been on my mind a lot is fear, anxiety, stress, anger and many other emotions. The last week I have been so angry, depressed, and pessimistic... and I’m not the only one who has noticed it. However, I didn’t realize till today how much of a hold Satan has on this world right now. He is feeding us with fear... for our lives, our loved ones lives, our finacial stability, our mental and physical health, and so many more things. Satan is winning. He is working so dang hard on us right now. He is wanting us to fear everything. He is trying to divide us from our loved ones. He is trying to take away all of the things we love.  On the flip side, Heavenly Father is preparing us. He is giving us time to ponder and pray and fast. He is giving us time to focus on our families. He is giving us the time we always pray for, the time with our loved ones. Yes, IT SUCKS. I love my family... but being couped up in a house with them for more than week... makes me wanna pull my hair out sometimes. But... I have noticed... spending more time with my family has helped me develop a better relationship with them. It’s weird to me how different it is when you actually put in the work to love the ones that you take for granted. You guys.... don’t let Satan win. Don’t let him make you feel fear and anxiety during this crazy time. This too shall pass, and everything  will be amazing after it. I can’t wait to see everything open back up. I can’t wait to go to the movies again, go to a restaurant again. And that will come, but I know I need to take the time I have right now to focus on my savior and my loved ones. Stay safe all. Pray to your god.  Hold your loved ones a little tighter. We will beat this!