2021 + The Purpose of Life

My whole life I always thought that everyone here on earth had a certain purpose, a certain thing that they were meant to be here on earth to achieve. Whether it be to inspire people, to change the way others think or many other different things. Tonight I watched the new Disney movie Soul, and it talks a lot about finding your purpose in life, and how no one really knows what there purpose in life is. I have spent majority of my life trying to find my purpose, and feeling like if I didn’t know what my purpose was... why was I here? I have felt like I haven’t been achieving goals, or living up to my highest potential because I have truly believed that no matter what I did I was never good enough, I was never going to inspire other people or help others who have gone through similar situations. I wasn’t worthy to be loved, or worthy to do anything I set my mind to.... because I felt worthless. These last few years I have beat myself up. I have told myself that no one cared what I had to say. That no one looked up to me or even knew who I was. Watching that movie made me really think. Do I want to spend my life living it for others? Do I want to spend my life so obsessed with what other people think about me that I forget myself and what I want to do? It made me think about all the negative thoughts I have on a daily basis about myself and how I need to stop that. I need to stop doubting my potential and push myself to be who I know I can be. Who I want to be. I need to surround myself with people who bring me up. Who push me to be better and to do better. 2020 for me was a year of hardship, a year of change, a year of heartbreak, and a year of answered prayers. 2020 changed me in ways I can’t even comprehend to explain. There has been so many people that have impact my life this year and to them I say thank you. Thank you for always having my six💙 no matter what has gone down. And for sticking with me through out the years. I have always been so blessed to have such amazing friends and family who always support me no matter what. I love you all with all my heart. Here’s  to 2021 being the year of making my own happiness and the year of choosing my own destiny. 

Love you for always, 

M